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DEAR-BEAR things/ part 1

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The very first time we interacted and the same group we were into.

Ppt was the thing we got a topic to discuss about,

That time I didn’t knew,

You would be part of my journey too🚬

Youtube links were the some good things.

You shared with me,

I loved them and asked you to send me more.🤓

Well that was the very first time,

Someone asked me to behave first,

I got confused and frustrated that very moment,

And thought about,

Why any of my mate didn’t asked me to do this before.☺️

Tho, I was aware of your work

And that night, you shared another masterpiece of yours.

It was more than good,

After appreciation,

I said to myself ‘wow’🚬

Thought popped up in my mind that this is the man,

From whom I can learn certain things about,

God knows… how!🧐

Days passed by, we interacted too,

Never thought of that

Things we talked about,

Would even bother us, me or you😊

One of my very close and attached thing, hurt me the most.

You came to me, asked me, tried to cheer me up.

My sports was the story, you were the very first person got to know about,

I cried in-front of you.

Now I would like to tell you…

That was the real feeling, I never imposed.🙂

I never thanked you.

Instead I always smiled.

And this was the thing,

I asked you to do

Whenever you were supposed to thanked me too.😅

Many a times, my watsapp statuses were the topic we usually got to talk about,

It was not anything else,

But my heart shouted out loud🚬

Ever thought of that?

Why I even posted them;

I never imposed.

But in real, I tried to talk to

I tried to explain,

Sad it is… my heart is the only thing now,

I could claim🙂🚬

With the flow of life,

We got a group too.

Small and precise, along with our best mate🐯

How could I not pen down memories about her,

As we already got them few😇

The very first time,

You’ve hurt me the most…🔥

Was our conversation about life,

I was talking about my perspective,

Never thought your reaction could make my mouth shut,

And my heart would become a coast🌊

You got to know about one of my favourite to-do.

While chatting and face to face interacting…

You started offering me,

As if you gonna make it true😇

I always wanted to pull your ears,

And i know you never wanted this.

You got frustrated every time and asked me

To stay away.☺️

For these little things never meant anything to you,

But more than memories to me,😻⚓️

As I always wanted that if you chose to leave,

Your memories do stay😇🚬

I nicknamed you and I really don’t know why.😇

Maybe, I find some of my things as same as yours,

Your level of frustration; at times were high.

I wonder why,

That never made me cry🙂

One of the best memory of ours include,

Calling out your nickname loud.

And in return, you nicknamed same to me,😻

I really don’t know why not only me,

But my heart smiled too.

And what was the point of that moment,

Why I just let it be.⚓️

26th October’17 … the very first time

You asked me, How was your day.🚬

Trust me, never have I shared anything, a single pain or a moment of happiness with you.

If my heart knew that … these are the happy moments

I’ll be asked to pay.😅

Happiness never mattered to you,

You told me once.

This thing hit me hard, deep down.💔

Honestly, I’ve prayed for you,

That may all the good moments and happiness comes all your way and surrounds.🌀

A good thing you shared once,

‘Be patient for what was written for you was written by the greatest of writers’📝

Trust me or not,

Your shared piece, strengthened me

As if I was ready to face sadness, like fighters⚔️

28th October’17 .. The very first time,

I clicked a picture of yours—

And you were unaware of that.

When I shared that picture of yours with you,😁

Remember, you got frustrated and asked me ..

Why? This was not you were supposed to do.

With the passage of time;

You were used to it.😸

I know clicking your picture like this,

For making some good memories—

Was no less than a shit.💩

28th October’17…

You were on a kind of escape,

You shared some memories with me.

You talked to me all the way.

Deep down, I felt Im not at my place—but Im with you😅

Enjoying our escape, never thought of that,

This would happened too.⚓️

The video clip you shared, along with the morning greeting😁

It was one of my best morning and forced me to think…

How good someone’s treating⚓️

You were smoking

And shared a picture of yours,🙂

you asked me to join

As if, you gonna make this very moment happened, for sure😊

Once, I asked, how are you?

You told me, more than bad, how about you?☺️

That time, my heart didn’t believed what you said,

Now I got to know why you say such things about yourself, my bad🙂

There wasn’t any point of sharing deep things with you.😅

Once I tried to talk to the reality,

Why you’d asked me or why I’d shared

Now I realised, it was a rainbow of life without a hue😅

4th nov’17…the second time I saw you in my dream.🚬

It was more than bad,

I wish I could tell every part of it before, to you.

But I didn’t,

And tried to find the meaning of what I’ve seen.

I was sad and my heart literally screamed,

Still, I beamed😊

On some point, you said,

Its easy to play with you, sorry to say.😄

Perhaps, that was the time, I didn’t got what you said.

Now, I admit that,

After what you did to my feelings.

Making me realise…

There comes a time

Even for the sincerity, you’ll have to pay💔

9th nov’17 … the very first time you shared some deep kind of shit, disturbing you, deep down🚬

And the very first time, I tried to help you in understanding …

It is the type of shit, which revolves around.🌀

10th nov’17…The day when you first time thanked me, for listening to you.😊

And I got frustrated, for little things means a lot to me… This was not you were actually .. supposed to do🚬

And then I told you, you can come to me,

You can share what you want to;

I will always listen to you…⚓️

Like the way I did,

Maybe,

Because not only me,

But my heart wanted this too😇

Have I ever shared; How I’m doin’— by myself,

Didn’t you asked me, about my health by yourself?🙂

14th nov’17 … first time you asked and after a while, first time I shared☺️

Now I don’t understand, what was the point,

Did you really cared?😅

16th Nov’17 … Third time, I saw a dream about you😇

Making it very difficult for me to understand;

Unbearable, unstoppable and thoughtful too.😖

16th Nov’17 … The very first time you clicked pictures of mine and I was unaware of that too☺️

When you shared those pictures, with me;

I still remember, how I giggled and laughed that night,

I didn’t reacted, same as you😇

On some point, I strongly felt, perhaps I’ve hurt you.

On your reaction,

I confessed that okay;

Will take care from now onwards,

And will think before I speak🤭

Remember what you said in return,

That no need to do this,

Talk to me as you always do,

I already have many people in life,

They do this like a freak😁

20th nov’17…The day when I shared worst part of my life with you,🙂

Remember, how we talked about game of life,

Trust and expectations too😄

Now I wonder if all this thing was a part of great lies—💔

Dear, answer me,

Why didn’t you realise?🙂

22nd nov’17… the day when we fought crazily after your cell.😁

I really wanted to kill you that time,

But the way you fought with me,

Seemed, as if Im gonna take your thing away from you and sell🤩

The very same day,

You took away a thing close to my heart.⚓️

Let me tell you, in return—

For me, Your demand was extraordinarily hard☺️

But I tried to explain,

It is some temporary pain🚬

Your friend will give your love back to you,🖤

He’s the man who can’t see things disturbing me,

I knew this too.😄

23rd nov’17… and once again, we were one group, for the act.📝

I was always good with you

And our best mate,

Well, actually this was the fact😀

25th nov’17… The very first time

I talked to you, when I was sleepy💤

Remember, what we talked about, that night.

Agreed, I sounded more than creepy😁

29th nov’17…The day when you confessed,

Who am I to you.😇

Just a person from a small group of people,

You could easily talk to. Phew😊🚬

7866 were the number of text messages,

When I first shared, the screenshot of our chat data usage of watsapp.❎

It was just the beginning,

Which meant a lot to me.

Now I would say,

Perhaps, It was a part of some deep crap❌

…📝🚬⚓️

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Im sorry again ..🙂 I am unable to complete what I’ve started dear…

Nowadays my heart is a bit broken..

Rereading your chats and imagining your memories are literally killing me ..

This could really happen never thought of that BEAR⚓️

But I promise I will complete what I’ve started, soon.

You captured a good place in my heart.. like a light in the darkest night of the moon.

Its 23rd May…

your birthday😊

Remember how I fought with you for knowing about this day😸

Never knew .. this is how I would greet you,

My heart really wanted you to stay⚓️

Finally you told me… and That was not only me but my heart listened too…🖤

and now,

I wish all the best to you for your upcoming life… God bless you⚓️

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